The following four questions were posed to a group of us on a forum. The idea here stemmed from the original poster in the forum reading a book called The Faery Teachings by Orion Foxwood and an episode of Babylon 5 where Dalen is interrogated. Where each time she is asked who she is, she begins with the simple answer “I am Dalen.” and each time she she punished for giving the “wrong” answer. We were challenged to answer these questions without using “I am…” or “I don’t know” answers.

1: Who am I?

I am constructed of a number of parts which on their own posses a lesser value than the assembled whole, that describes what I am but who am I? My parents call me one name, others by varying other names, you the anonymous reader know me as Vox, but how can a name define who a person is? A name is just a label of sorts applied to a sentient being to differentiate one from another. Can a name given to you by another truly describe who I am? I think not. I can sum up the aspects of what makes me who I am but that’s only part of the story. I am transgendered, I am bisexual, I am Heathen, but there will be those out there who will call me a liar and not believe me when I say this. Perhaps because they are blinkered and close minded perhaps now, they do say ignorant is bliss. I think however that at the end of the day it doesn’t matter how I describe myself or say what I am, other people have already formed their own decisions as to what I am and that may or may not match what I say I am. I am a constantly fluctuating and evolving being in an ever changing world. That is the best description I can come up with at the moment.

2: What is it (God, creator, force, ect)?

To me all deities, regardless of what name you know them by are all facets of the same divine energy. To me my concept of where divinity came from starts with the coming together of the fires of Muspellheim and the ice of Niflheim in Ginnungagap, the primordial void. From the melt waters came Ymir, the frost giant and Buri the first god. From Ymir form came the first frost giants, from Buri, the gods. So yes I hold the Norse creation myth close to my heart, to me it makes sense, and yes to others it may not. I also have a scientific mind and to me it is fine for science and my beliefs to walk hand in hand. I follow the Norse pantheon, though I hold the god Loki closest to my heart. However that doesn’t mean that I do not recognize and respect other deities. As already mentioned, at the end of the day I see all gods and goddesses as individual facets of the gleaming gem that is divinity.

3: Why am I here/Why do I exist?

I am here to learn what this life has to teach me and add to the knowledge my soul has gained over it’s various incarnations. I exist because this is the vessel my soul decided to inhabit for the duration of this lifetime. I am here to expand my knowledge, to live a full life and do my bit to make this world a better place even if it’s something small like picking up the litter that gets left outside my front door by the drunken idiots that get turned out of the pubs every night or indulging in some “guerilla gardening”. If you are not familiar with the term look it up. To stop and explain will detract from the question in hand. This body of mine, despite being a mismatch to the identity of my soul is here because of the act that brings all new life forth into the world. Without that none of us would be here.

4: What happens when we die?

I am still pondering what the answer to this question would be. The only people who can verify what lies beyond death are those who have died. Trying to speak with the dead is not an idea I entertain, the dead have passed on, leave them to what ever lies beyond the veil in peace. According to the Eddas and the Sagas if I die in combat I will be spirited away by a Valkyrie to Folkvang or Valhalla. If I die a natural death then I will go to Helheim and await Ragnarok. To me there is more than that and considering Snorri Sturelson put the Eddas to paper when Christianity was sweeping through Europe I can’t help but wonder if the Eddas originally said something else. I have no proof so I can only speculate. What I believe will happen to me when I die is that I will pass into the afterlife and spend time reflecting upon what lessons I have learned in this life, and once my soul has spent enough time reflecting I believe I will be born into a new body and start all over again, to learn more lessons from life and try in my own way to become a little closer to and more at one with the world I live in and in my own way make the world a little better for everyone.

Ask me these questions again in a year’s time and you will probably get four different answers.

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